Friday 12 October 2012

Not Enough.....

In all Honesty....this week was a tough week for me....

   I am often asked how I do it all, hold it all together. With work, being a single mom, training, keeping things organized and flowing day to day. I usually respond "I just do it", and for the most part I just do, there is no other option.  I know that I have to stay in control of my "ship" as I am the only one responsible for it.
 However sometimes there are days like this week that I feel like I can't hold it all together. I feel like I'm not being the best Mom, the hardest worker, greatest daughter, most supportive friend, my training is not up to the level I expect and I am just not being the best "Aeryon" I can be....I feel like....I'm not enough...
 I just want to crawl into bed cover my head and let someone else take over.

But that is not an option for me.....I can't........

So what do I choose to do.........

Well.....first thing is take a breath...I always tell Mekaella that when she is upset or crying "Take a Breath" a Deep one....

Then I try to think.....
Somedays I will not be 100% and that is ok....it's ok to give myself a break...it really is ok...
That everyone makes mistakes....
That I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this moment in time...there is nowhere else I could be...
In 5 years will this really matter?
And Try to Remember...

"All you can do is walk through it" (a great friend told me that once)

I have so many blessings in my life which is why I don't like to complain....
I make a choice to be positive...
However.....sometimes there are days.....
Those days are what put everything into perspective....

And............If all else fails......I put on some Tiesto......and have a dance party